scared.
Monday, October 27, 2008
7:41 PM
while browsing through a friends blogspot; i read the comment that the only thing that scares him is living & BAM just like that i wanted to write. In life; there are plenty of things people are seriously scared of ... heights; big dogs; water; bugs & so on... Yes bugs scare me, so do fish; but the thing that scares me most is living. Im scared to get old & see what my future holds. Im 21, have my own house; own car, i work full time & pay all my bills. When dating, im the type that wants to settle down. Yes i may be young; but i also have a failing liver. Not many people understand what its like to have a health issue that can ruin your future. With my failing liver; i may not make it to 40; or even 35. I want to have a family just like everyone else; find the one who completes me and live happily ever after. I may be young; but i may not be able to live a long life like everyone else. Im scared that i will get married, have a child, and then become ill and leave my child with only their father as i fall ill. Is it worth it to put someone thro that much pain; or to have a child who may not grow up without their mother? who honestly knows. All i know is i want that happiness in my life; and i believe that one day i will be able to find someone who understands that and is strong enough to be with me. Strong enough in which if i get ill, they can hold my head up as well as my childs. If i pass; i need a man who will let my child know; i loved them with every ounce of love i had. I dont want my child to grow up thinking i left them on this earth on purpose without a mother.

if you want; comment, and you can post what scares you.
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Erin Marie 23 years young - female Born & raised in Chicago.




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