erin marie‘s blog

i feel like im trapped in a world where no one understands,
no one is willing to lend a hand,
because no one really gives a damn,
tormented by my own thoughts,
locked away insanity,
fueled by my anger; you see me, you better duck.

no one cares about me,
so tell me why should i give a fuck?
travel in a state of mind,
my fathers running from doing time.
my mother is dead, i wish she had more time.
in response i've never felt love,
i look in the mirror & hate what i see
i hate what i've become
what i hate is me.

Call me a product of my environment
my home is in the streets
constantly searching for peace, yet i know it doesnt exist
got venom in my veins, but i want none of this,
i feel the walls closing in, God i need your help.
Tears run away from my eyes as i hold the trigger
debating on whether or not to proceed
people are quick to take but no ones quick to give
i might sound sad but i aint scared to die
im terrified to live.