Negative # 1 - impatient.
Monday, April 20, 2009
1:24 AMI can agree with me being impatient. My friend told me today, "when you want something, if someone doesn't give it to you then, you go somewhere else & get it." which he is completely right. i don't wait for anything. if i want it, i get it. but there has been one thing i cant find, which is a real relationship. main reason for that is ... i'm impatient. most of the time i rush things, i dont use my mind. i feel great so i just keep going & i dont look back.
why am i impatient?
i always have been, & it is something i need to work on. i know with love, the reason i am impatient is due to my health. i may not make it to 30, or i may make it to 60, i honestly don't know & neither do the doctors. with that, i want to experience love, settling down, a real relationship before my time decides to come. i want to be able to enjoy being an adult, i want to love someone who can love me back. i need to really work on understanding that nothing good will come if i dont take my time & work at it piece by piece. thankfully i have a great person who is going to help me realize the significance of patience & the good that comes out from having it.
Besides love, im impatient with everything else just because i hate waiting. I've always been independant, so if i want something ill get it. i have my own money my own shit, so i spend it how i want it. i want jeans that cost 130 bucks, ima have jeans that cost 130 bucks. i want 6 pairs of the same shoes in diff colors, ima have 6 pairs of the same shoes in different colors. i take care of myself so i don't have to depend on anyone else to do it for me. Also i have this mentality, that if i dont say or do something when i have the chance, i may never have that chance again, so why pass it up?
how can i fix it?
be slow . . . make ppl work hard, don't give in so easily. always put yourself first, & TAKE IT SLOW. i dont have to buy shit until it's a necessity. (damn that one will be hard.) All chances are not worth taking, think of the positive & negatives before you take a chance. Decide if it's really worth taking or can i pass it up?
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Erin Marie
23 years young - female
Born & raised in Chicago.
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