beginning a new chapter.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
9:31 PM
Recently i met someone who literally is amazing. He has brought so much to my attention in which i have not realized & now i look back thinking WTF?.  In the past years i have wasted my time & effort on so many people that were not deserving of it. I've done so many favors for people who never even appreciated it, then when i was on rock bottom no one was there. I always sat there & wondered why, and till this day i still don't have an answer. The only thing i can come up with is God put you in my life for a reason, and i learned from that reason. So to everyone that wasted my time i want to give you a huge THANK YOU for teaching me to do better. 

This man brings so much positiveness into my life it is practicly undescribable. I have quit smoking, and this time i am serious. I used to drink on a daily & i was able to quit that once i was diagnosed with a failing liver so i have no reason to not quit smoking.  It smells bad, tastes bad, & does nothing but make your life shorter than what was already planned for you. As a lady, cussing is unattractive. I cuss worse than a sailor. I plan on cutting down with using cuss words, sounds funny i know, but how sexy is a lady who cusses every other word? Can't bring me home to mama talking like that right? lol. 

After speaking with him on a couple of occasions, & looking back at my life, i feel it is right to close the chapter to my past & move forward.It is time to grow up. Those that i have done favors for & unable to recognize or appreciate it, thank you but that's enough. Those that have continuously done me wrong when i have done nothing but be respectful & nice towards you, that is enough. A person who continuously runs over individuals, & complain that they can't find happiness, that's enough. Also those that come to me for advice knowing exactly what they did wrong, enough. If you treat others like shit, don't come complain to me because you can't find a friend, or a lover. OBVIOUSLY there is a reason. Before you worry about others actions, worry about yourself. What do you do for yourself, what do you do for others? Do you deserve happiness, wonderful friendships, & a great lover on your side? Most of you, no. 

If you continue to run over indiviuals, don't expect anyone to treat you properly. And if someone does take that chance to treat you with respect and do favors for you, please hold them close. They do it to help, not to harm. I'm so sick of being so nice & helpful, yet i get nothing in return. 

I will not change who i am, if you don't like me, leave. There are people who appreciate me & everything i do, if you don't, leave.

Thank you for opening a new chapter in my life, this is exactly what i needed. =) 
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Erin Marie 23 years young - female Born & raised in Chicago.




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